“Surprise me, God.” 3 unassuming words and yet so dangerous. Nothing of great note. Today has been a whirlwind of emotions. Got up and was running late as usual. Got to work only to deal with a never ending pile of paper work. Did get it 90 percent done today. Started it yesterday. Highlight of the morning was an unplanned run to Starbucks. I can’t stand coffee, but if you can get them to make a steamer right, the Pumpkin Spice latte is to die for. They got it right this morning. So I figured I’d give another shot tonight before I ran to church for a meeting. They screwed it up. Coffee, yuck. And a venti to boot. Some day I’ll learn to drink it before I leave the store. Wouldn’t have helped tonight though. Our Starbucks is new and they are really slow. By the time I got it I only had a few minutes till I had to be at church. Oh well.
The weather is all gray and drizzly. It matches the way I feel right now. Depression is trying to creep back in. Trying to stay positive. I just want to shut off my brain. Looking for peace. Still haven’t found it. Questions keep flying in. Wondering what’s next. Where are we all trying to get to? Is this faith thing really worth all the work? Why is it that the “church” the last place people want to be? Why can’t we “church” people break loose of the club mentality? Church isn’t for those of us who are already there. The “church” is supposed to be people reaching out and caring for everyone. Not just those inside 4 walls on a Sunday. We all want the “lost” to find Jesus. But if Jesus is in us, and he is a shepherd looking for the lost sheep, why are we waiting for the sheep to wander to us. Looking for something lost implies action. Sitting in a pew week after week is not action. Actually, I don’t think the “lost” are lost. We (church goers) are the lost ones. God has moved and we are all sitting around wondering when he is going to come back. He’s not. He’s out looking for the lost ones. Which is where we should be. I don’t mean to get all theological, as I am no theologian. Food for thought though.
"Good morning, and in case I don't see ya, good afternoon, good evening, and good night!"~Truman in the Truman Show
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